Don’t let go. I have so many issues and insecurities but I promise I am trying my best to fight them off, and with you holding my hand I’m a lot stronger.

Don’t let go even if I push you away. Especially if I push you away. Because that’s when I’m most vulnerable and broken that I want everyone to leave me so they can’t see how damaged I am.

Don’t let go even if I say I hate you. I don’t. You’re holding my hand. You’re helping me. Why would I hate you? That’s just me saying I need you. That’s me saying hold me closer.

So please be patient with me. I know I’m being selfish. I know I don’t deserve you. I know you’re too good for me. I would let you go if you want. I won’t stop you. But you have me as long as you want me and I’d take what I can get.

I need you, even just to breathe. I don’t know if that’s healthy but it is for me. I need you because no one else had held my hand like you do. I need you because with you I’m better. I need you because you are my light.

I just…I love you and if that’s wrong then I don’t want to be right.

IN SILENCE

In silence

I found a friend

I found solace

And it didn’t seem to end.

In silence

I found something oddly pretty

Without the noise it makes

It exudes a quiet beauty.

In silence

I found pain

It rang in my ears

It rang in my brain.

In silence

I heard everything

I heard every damned noise

That my bloodstream was making.

In silence

I looked for freedom

And then I heard a voice

But it wasn’t mine.

It was in silence

When I heard your voice

You were calling to me

But why is there so much noise?

In silence, I kept calling

And I assume you heard me

But you did not respond

Perhaps my voice echoed vaguely.

In silence is where

Eventually I found my answer

That you weren’t calling for me,

Because you were calling for another.

When your voice was gone

In silence, I stayed and held my ground

But someone heard my muffled cries

And took my hand then pulled me out.

And then the silence

Was suddenly replaced with noise

But all I heard was his heart

Calling out for my voice.

In silence I have been lost

In it I almost drowned

But despite all the noises of the world

It was my voice he had found.

I’ve never heard such beauty

In the noise that I’ve been avoiding

For it wasn’t really a noise, but a sound

Of his heart and mine,

As together they pound.

In eternal silence

He saved me from

He introduced me to songs

That I could sing to;

He gave me freedom.

In silence I found him

In the noise he heard me.

We’re two people who wanted to escape

We’re two people meant for eternity.