Have you ever felt passionate about something? That you would do anything and everything for that something? That you would compromise and be submissive just for that something? That you know you won’t be complete without it? If you do, then you are lucky because some other people are not as lucky as you. Unlike you, they don’t have that kind of something. And it’s not a good feeling. It’s close to saying of feeling nothing. Not happy, not sad, just completely normal. And to be normal is not good. Because it won’t make you grow into your best self. You have to be either happy or sad. You can’t be in the middle.

It’s frustrating to realize that there is something lacking in your life. No one is supposed to feel that way, right? But then there you are, completely convinced that there is supposed to be more to your life. You can’t stop feeling guilty because you know you are much more blessed than other people. You have food on your plate, 5 times a day. You have a beautiful house. You don’t work that hard to earn money. Somehow, it finds its own way to you even if you don’t need it. And of course, you don’t even have the right to feel lonely because you have a family, loving parents and crazy, funny friends. It makes you feel selfish and it may sound that you are a whinny brat which makes you hate yourself because you are not content on what God has blessed you. But you can’t help but feel that there is really a hole in your being that’s waiting to be filled. But by what, you don’t know.